Time really flies, doesn't it?

I found this year's "all-star gathering" over at my place weird.
Was it because we were seeing lesser people than usual?
Usually the adults would be playing mah-jong while my sister
and I would bring the rest to Pasir Ris Park for a slow walk

or a trip White Sands (Since now they have grown out of silly games)!

This year, however, the younger ones played poker cards with my father,
while the older cousins and my sister sat and talk.

How I wish I were closer to my cousins (aside from Joan). 
Most of them are female and sometimes, my sister and the rest would 
organise a cousins outing. As usual, Leslie's interest would not be there.
This would result to a ladies night outing.  I would then get jokes saying
"Well, unless you are really dying to go", making me feel even more
awkward because I'm not really dying to - just wanting to spend time and all.

A few days ago, we went to my cousin's house (dad's side) 
and I was sitting on his bed, listening to the conversation
he had with my sister. My brother joined in, while on a roller chair. 
When he finished his sentence and when my sister
caught me looking at her at that time, she turned 
her head back and told Daniel, my cousin, 
a story that made me looked stupid. The one that
I followed my sister's instruction to cycle down the 
stairs when I was about 7-9 years old,
where I thought whatever family said was right.
When she ended her sentence and wanted an assurance,
she turned to my brother and said "Right? Right? Remember?"
My brother would just smile and nod his head slowly, 
not knowing if he should stay on the fence or take sides. 
God knows what her friends think of me when they come during visiting. 
God knows what my cousins think of me. 
This was not the first time she embarrass me about personal stories
of us as siblings or even regarding my personal character. 
It has been countless times, same repeated stories,
without her even knowing that she is doing so -
it becomes so natural for her to talk about my bad points to someone else. 
I doubt anyone wouldn't want to be in that position. 

If I were to voice out, my sister would probably say, "You're really sensitive".
Sadly, I'm closer to my sister than brother, while, not surprisingly,
my sister is closer to my brother since young. They
always have something against me. And I bet,
after this entry, if my sister reads this, she
would diss me in person one-on-one.