What I have to do by the end of this block?
- APEL haha!
- Complete in-class exercise (morning)
- Reflection (morning)
- Static designs (afternoon)
- Zoo/Science Centre kiosk (morning)

What I want to do at the end of this block?
- Website
- Spend time with IMD fwens
- Community Service with sss fwens
- Pack room (urgent)

My dad just came back from Malaysia today,
my mom just came back from HK last 2 sundays.
My brother went to Australia a few months back,
and my sister is going there this coming June.
HAHA, me? Well, I'm looking forward to the
next holiday, even a trip to Malaysia will
make me satisfied. All I need is time.

My brother is now working, waiting for army, graduation day is approaching.
My sister is now having her holidays, going to Australia soon, working part time.
HAHA, me? Well, I'm (as usual) always a total different schedule compared to them.
While they are having fun in the sun, I'm busy with schoolwork; just like how I felt
when I was in secondary 5 - having to wake up so early in the morning to find
that no one is awake like we used to. I somehow wish, really, I didn't exist.

I've been trying hard to do the best in all that I can.
Not only in work but I try to spend time with friends.
But I do know that there are times when I should not be,
but something tells me to just go with the flow, however,
something tells me to stay focus to be the best in my studies,
and feel bad about not doing one or the other - get what I mean?

I feel as though I'm just not good enough as a friend,
a family member, as compared to others. I am only conscious
about the things I do and the things that happen to me, around me.
I myself am not sure if it is really my workload which ties me down
or my time management isn't really good enough.

In a project, I like it to be fast paced and complete it as soon as possible.
However, I am always seen as the one being seen as the direct opposite of
"CHILL". I'm not sure if I should take things lightly, and not seen as someone
who's so tensed, and just take it a step at a time. However, then again, I will be
feeling a little weird or empty if I choose to do one way or the other - get what I mean?

I guess that's the way I am but I am still finding the better part, still.

Heyo. I decided to make my fonts smaller, can read? Been typing my resume and a cover letter to a company,
the company and all is real but the whole practice is fictitious. Having done this, we will have a mock-up
interview this Monday. No doubt nervous about this because I have absolute no experiences. Anyway,
was just thinking about my fellow friends in engineering if their resumes will be even harder to write
than those who are studying in the business or design courses where many would probably have
worked freelance or ever promoted a product before. While writing the job resume, I thought
to myself it's so weird trying to sell yourself as a product. There's like even things to say,
things not to say and what is expected of you and all. Suddenly everything seems so
fake. I have to work on my portfolio as soon as possible before this Monday.
Still have not organised and all but at least I know how to make a good
portfolio and resume now, its not so important as compared to
writing a cover letter. I wonder how should I dress on
Monday! Tomorrow there's apel, wonder what we'll
be doing but also, not really that interested.
Glad there isn't any CCN Day this year.
Just a chunk of text that makes an
interesting shape huh? Haha!
Oh well, I cannot wait to the
time when I can write a
good resume and CV
as well as a good
portfolio so I
can find a
decent
JOB

Phoo. Gonna start writting my cover letter and resume tonight.
No more procrastination and yes, finally went for a jog!
Damnn tired but still alive. Is it me or ..
.. msn spaces has lots of pop ups?

Friday:
- eastpointed with chin sian: fixed glasses
- chat with Chin Sian: eat potato and melted cheese at ljs
- sushi tei with jiejie & gladys: cha soba, alot of makis,
cannot find a decent kakiageh and chawamushi
- failed attempt in tampines 1: wanted to try the tart, they said 'no more'
- went back home

Saturday:
- outing with chin Sian and firdaus: angel and demon-ed at illuma.
- I WANT TO WATCH 2012 IN NOVEMBER
- want to try harley davidson ride when the motorbikelady quits her job.
- eat chicken rice, 2 servings, ta paoed another for my dad.
- went back home

Sunday:
- procarastination: wanted to jog but slept through the day.
- finally: woke up for brunch with dd at macs.
- the moment i reached home: went to pick mom up.
- right after brunch: had ajisen for lunch.
- baby pig: slept the evening away.
- father pig: ate teo chew muay.
- went back home

but really look like a dress right?! the shimmering thingy..
anyway Phoebe - 我打算不要提醒那件事. 哈哈!

derek

Happy Vesak Day and Happy Mother's Day.

Sometimes I feel like I don't belong anywhere.
It's gonna take so long for me to get to somewhere.
Sometimes I feel so heavy hearted, but I can't explain cos I'm so guarded.
But that's a lonely road to travel, and a heavy load to bear.
It's a long, long way to heaven, but I got to get there.
Can you send an angel?
Can you send me an angel to guide me?
Thank you for everything, mom.

Going to Canton Kitchen for dinner soon. Finished the Milo essay,
last one up next but for now its a break for myself; I need ONE.
Went to Toa Payoh's Fortunate Restaurant after mom told me early
yesterday morning. TIM SUM MAN. Very long time never eat but know what?
the bill was close to $300 like wth. The food isn't like anything special or what
but maybe the service is good but then again I didn't use the toilet haha! (err)
Feeling abit happy because I am officially a volunteer in the TPCSC,
community service club! Huda isn't inside for some reasons, but yes,
I will make some new friends in that club. At least I will feel that
I won't waste my time doing nothing else - its for a good cause!

derek