My runny nose ruined my day.
New record: 18/38 in class
I came back today at about 1:30pm
because i went to have my lunch with Jun at Elias Mall
best chicken rice - near my home.

Every little thing was getting on nerves.
From the way my mom fix her computer through the phone,
to the system damage on my computer when i turned it on,
to the lack of understanding of language with my maid,
I took mediciene and went to sleep.
Until 7pm.

Woken up by the sound of repairmen who doctored my sister's airconditioner.
Woke everyone up, and ate dinner at home.
Later did I know, we will be eating supper with my cousins.
I wasn't in the right mind of communicating,
so i practically kept quiet the whole time.

Okay. There's more things that got my nerve
when i reached home but I'm not gonna elaborate.
WISH ME LUCK FOR N LEVELS.!
<<mym>>
 - dEREk -

<<mym>>
 - dEREk -

After reading my previous post,
I felt that it was too harsh.
I want to take things light these days.

Today,
I had to attend O Level Remedial
at about 8:30am to 10:30am.
Prelims - B3
Practice exam (Express' Prelim) - C6
an astonishing drop of 3 grades.
that ain't good.
Went home, changed.
Went out of the house about 12:30pm.
Met Chin Sian and Firdaus at Pasir Ris MRT station.
We were getting ready to go to get the 5-year-series O level maths.
Walked to the National Library Board. Took the lift to 14th floor (highest level)
and my heart sank to my legs, and my legs were at level one.
At the 14th floor, it was very spacious and it seems it was out-of-bounce to public
but we came out and took pictures.
I thought to myself: I am above 14 times taller an average man.
we went back down, and the lift unfortunately stopped - an old man boarded.
We were at level one when we met this lady. she spoke english.
she seemed suspicious as she was holding a book and had a grin on her face.
Looks more like a smirk. She said calmly, staring straight at both Chin Sian and I
"Have you been to the 10th floor?"
Chills went down my spine. My hair stood up.
She continued "They are giving this book for free".
All of us looked at each other with the "...." look.
we went up, wrote our name and took the book. Chin Sian took an extra book for Mdm Zubaidah.
Walked around Bugis Junction and bought the ribbons for the decorations.
then we took a late lunch at BK. I got a Rendung Burger. oO. yummy.
Wrote the words in the letter, and off to Tampines for English Remedial.
She loved it, she appreciated it so much.
Firdaus - let the cat of out the bag - "It was free"
We spent ~ 2hours there.
Went back home with heavy legs.
<<mym>>
 - dEREk -

Should I post this or not?
Should I publish this entry?
Yesterday
during dinnertime, like any other day,
it was the usual business talk
over the dinnertable.

yes, he ever said that it is the company that help
get food on the table.
i would be like okay, i know that and appreciate, but
must it be on the dinnertable?

back to topic, he brought up not to lock the door.
i hate it when people invade my privacy.
worst still, without even knocking on the door.
i remember once i was thinking of new steps to a song,
when the door swung open. don't you hate it?
at least knock in the locked door, and i will attend to you shortly.
(as i am typing now, i'm getting a feeling that my father is eyeing this computer)
speaking of which, i think the topic was brought up by my sister
however it was brought to a further recognition by my father.
anyway, i took a quick meal and went back upstairs to complete my work.

Today
I took a nap at home after school
and slept in the evening WITH door unlocked.
It was then about 7pm plus when my mom
woke me up. I took awhile before getting up.
The phone was ringing soon after she went to level one.
i was to lazy to pick up. then finally got up and got down.
my maid - do not know where on earth everyone is
so i decided to call my parents' room. so i dialed and
to my surprise it was my father. so i started the conversation with
"hello, where did ma go?"
"she went to NTU to pick jie jie..she tried to wake you up
but you were sleeping"
"ohh okay."
"so the moral of the story is do not lock the door" 
^ i think he was trying to be funny here, but it wasn't.
so i replied
"i didn't lock the door"
and slam the phone down which i didn't wanted to but couldn't control.

i hate it when he interfere with my life because he tells us 
to keep quiet if we have nothing good to say
but he's not practising what he preech.
It is really difficult to think positive when
something negative has happened you.
Whatever the case, he's still my father.

<<mym>>
 - dEREk -

Every little bit hurts
Every little bit hurts
Every night i cry
Every night i sigh
Every night i wonder why
you treat me so cold

I felt a sense of happiness
and a sense of achievement when Hua Rui
told Firdaus, in front of me,
that I was his best senior of all.
I had never thought that I would
make any impression on anyone.

Did I tell you my brother,
who is a year older than me,
went to Thailand for 4 days?

There are so many things that are on my mind.
It just cannot be written in words or expressed
in any other forms.

<<mym>>
 - dEREk -

Flashbacks of my past came to me yesterday night.
It was about those happy times,
as well as those unpleasant moments
which made me who I am today.

It is natural to think that the other side is greener.
Our side would be greener if others compare with us!
lol what a thought!

It is approaching.
One day.
This special day.
disappointed smile :)

Okay..today i had History remedial (actually for 4N2)
since Shu Ting was going, I tagged along.
English remedial was also on (for 4N1 actually)
So I popped in to get the paper before History remedial
Frankly, History didn't do a bit of help! oh well!
haha. Wrong Choice!
okay, i'm gonna wash up for now.
i think next two days would be science days!
lol
see yas!

<<mym>>
 - dEREk -

Today has been a very tiring day. My whole afternoon was filled with activites.
I had a lift to the Pasir Ris MRT interchange to meet Jun Xiang and Firdaus.
Picking clothes to wear was very weird because it has been a long time since
I went out to meet someone/friends. However, I didn't had a hard time as dressing up
was not important because is the English lesson I'm more focusing on.
We met Shu Ting & Jocelyn at Tampines MRT station and took bus 69.
Alighted and searched for Mdm Zubaidah, cracking jokes at the same time. (In fact the whole time)
Her house was very quiet, equipped with 2 single chairs and a longer sofa surrounding a mini table,
a mattress beside the long sofa as well as a keyboard on the side of the wall. I believe it is a 5-room flat.
I miss HDB!! Hahaha.. its all good. Lights were not switched on, we used solar energy - sunlight.
Her dressing was the same at what she would wear at school, just that her footware was not the same.
4:30pm was the time we ended, and went separate directions. Chin Sian, Jun Xiang and I brought Firdaus
to the Tampines MRT station and saw him off. While we took a slow walk around Century Square.
I had to be sensitive to the conversation topics as it could affect some of us so I really minded my words.
I had to go off because my mom told me that we will be out having dinner with gong gong and por por... (yatavee too)
rushed to Paya Lebar MRT station, dropping Chin Sian at Bedok station, and Jun Xiang went to Pasir Ris.
Dinner was okay.. talked about Leslie's IMF, mainly. I was tired at this time.
I slept the whole time in the car as I believed that it'll be a long journey home.
HOME SWEET HOME! *pop* went straight to sleep. >> just woke up.
Everyone's gone.
<<mym>>
 - dEREk -

Act bad
Don't hurt me
Look sexy
Talk dirty
Get me so excited

i came home late today because
nicholas and i stayed in school till 6pm
to complete his maths when mr chow
walked by and told me to tell the o level students
to purchase the 5-year series to use on saturday,and bring the money tml
as he said so far, 2 failures, i could be one of them
anyway, yesterday, bowling game was fun!
i never bowl for along time so my score were <100
haha. all the best to prelim takers!!

<<mym>>
 - dEREk -

In a blink of an eye,
the one-week-holiday is over!
What have you done?
What have you not done?
You vote. You decide.
I didn't know until yesterday that
Hady was from my school!

I went to school today supposely for
History remedial.
I saw Mdm Zubaidah with her daughters,
Mr Joe with a few other photographers on duty,
Mr Tharmen looking at his very best,
friends like Yasin, James, Lidya, Liyana, etc
all having cameras, handphones, and *fun*,
Mr Chow with sunglasses at the school gate,
away from the fun.
and i don't understand,
teachers first question at any school event
"Aren't you on duty?"
goodness.

I really got to buck up on my maths
as I have not really got started to study
for my upcoming papers later this month
additional maths paper one is still on my list
as well as the darn history class that has been postpone.
Friday. Lovely. If only it is raining and everyone's home.
<<mym>>
 - dEREk -

Morning Edition   
*eight in the morning*
Just came back from my
Chinese Listening Paper III
and i am gonna start studying social studies soon
it was played on Symphony 92.4FM
10 questions with 5 storylines and answers were real close

   Afternoon Edition  
*two in the afternoon*
"ok, you may begin"
*flips the answer & question booklet
! exclaimation mark
a decontent source based-question
and 3 essay quetions that i really didn't focus on
topics were merger/separation, diplomacy/asean, welfare state
i focused on conflicts within countries and sri lanka/northern ireland
well however i tried my very best in diplomacy/asean
now all i can do is just hope for my best
and study crazily on my history

<<mym>>
 - dEREk -

ahh
just came back from school
actually, had a conflict with my brother

 SLEEP V.S. N LEVELS

i came back home with the bicycle
but for once without the keys to my house
remembering that my brother is inside,
i pressed the bell once *waited*
twice *waited*
thrice *waited*
then i got fed-up, thinking of climbing over with
the biycle locked outside..but then, so what if i climb over?
i will still be stuck!
so, i pressed the bell again *waited*
and again *waited*
and again *waited*
i really got fed-up. i pressed the bell, it was hang
he came down and open
shouted "open the gate yourself?"
for once he knows how i feel

wish me luck for social studies!

<<mym>>
 - dEREk -

            Hey! I have not blog for quite awhile. Its already September and in three days time, my N Levels will start! Ain't it fast?! Oh well, it will come and go like nobody's business. Yesturday, my primary school friends went back to TNS. A few things was in my mind before I made my decision of not wanting to go.  My friends were staying nearer to TNS then compared to me, so it may be a little rush for me. Surely after a day's work out of holding the camera, getting up front and personal to take HQ pictures while squatting down on the foor (in order not to block people's view) would make my legs go nuts if I were to rush there. I also felt that the studies gap is too wide. They are almost all Express Stream while I am in Normal Stream. I would feel really awkward and may not know how to react to certain situation.

             Teachers' Day was okay, but there were too many bands, bands with stupid names. Really. "Artifact" ?!, "F&N"?!. Unfaithful by Rihanna was overboard as it was played during every interval of performing groups. It wasn't really up to my expectations. Anyway, its already an event that has happened.

             I really have to pull up my socks! Exam periods are here and celebration is over.

<<mym>>
 - dEREk -